April 2007


It was a Friday evening…I was almost in a holiday mood…My dad called me up in the evening, he was stuck up on the way back home, his scooter ran out of fuel. I had to help him. I started off from office and I met him. We transferred some fuel from my bike to his scooter…While we were about to leave, he suggested to buy some tender coconuts for my mom. We went to near by tender coconut shop….

I asked the shop keeper to get two tender coconuts; he was already occupied with a customer. So I had to wait for some time…Then I realized a small boy in the shop was gazing my office identity card tag…He was so curious about it…I thought he wanted to have a interested to see it. So I removed my ID card tag, and handed over it to him…He said…

The kid: Onnum illai anna, indha ID card la irukradhu neenga dhana nu pathain….(Nothing brother, I was checking if it was you in the ID card picture….)

I knew already our ID cards photograph is so pathetic; our admin guys make real ghosts out of us ;-) Even good looking faces get turned as ghosts !! Then where do I stand :-)

But I liked the kid, I liked the way he spoke…his presence of mind.

I continued,

Me: Endha school padikura…(which school are you studying??)

The kid: RBI school…

 I could not hear his voice…I asked him again…He yelled at me again saying,

The kid: RBI school !!!!!!

 I thought I made his mercury level raise, he was playing with some black dot like thing in his small desk. I was wondering what it was, then on touching it I realized it was coat buttons, I asked him

Me: Ennadhu idhu…!! Oh button aa…!! (whats this…!! Oh buttons is it?)

The kid: hmmm amaam…(hmmm..yes !!)

This time his reply was in normal tone…

By now, his father, the shop owner was cutting two tender coconuts, I asked him what the price was, and he answered 30 bucks.

I took 30 bucks (three ten rupee notes) and handed over it to the kid…He asked me,

The kid: Enna anna elanir vangitangala……(What brother, did you get the tender coconuts??..)

Me: Illapa innum vangala..(No not yet..!!)

The kid: Appana vanguna apparam kaasu kuduthu irukalam la…een ippavey kuduthinga…(Then you should have handed over the money after getting it…why did you give it now itself..)

I could not answer that question, I just smiled at him…I could only find his pure heart there which was filled with honesty and moral…His attitude to follow the business etiquette with proper norms…I liked the boy…I thought, I should buy tender coconut in his shop if I am buying it next time.

When everyone is a kid…like him, everyone were pure and good souls, as time passed by, we get into materialistic dominations and forget some basics of living our life…

Yesterday, while chatting with one of my friend regarding poems I realized this simple yet beautiful and powerful fact.

If you go to Indian Hindu temples, most of the them have this vilakku, the traditional lamp in temples. During most of times during the day, due to the sun light the temple is enlightened. But during, night times, the beauty of the temple is because of these traditional lamps and the light they generate. And, when the temple is closed, all the artificial lamps are switched off and only one of this vilakku continues to lighten the God’s idol.

God is so powerful and wonderful…But, for such a powerful being there is a small source which provides light…what happens when that light is not there?? No one knows there is a idol there…Its all darkness that dominates…The idol loses its beauty…and naturally the temple itself.

So, If you are given an option to be God or the traditional lamp, which one would you choose? I would choose to be the lamp…

உன்னிடம் நான் என்ன கைதியா??
எத்தனை திருப்பங்கள்..

ஆசைகளின் நிழலாய்…
நிழலின் நிஜமாய்…
நிஜங்களின் நினைவாய்…

இப்படி எத்தனை பரிமாணங்கள்…
உன்னையும் வெற்றி கொள்வேன்…
என் கனவுகளில்…

My first tamil post…If there are any spelling mistakes please bear with it…It takes some time for me to get used with the transliteration key combinations….

Yesterday evening, I was disturbed about something which I saw…I realized my dream or wish is having less chances of becoming true which eventually made me upset :(

We went to cafeteria and the snacks was not good, we decided to go out to a hotel and have some snacks. We went to a hotel which is pretty close to our office, two of my friends joined me. I was sharing my thoughts about my recent realization about the dream and the reality with them.

We ordered our dishes, while waiting for them, the topic drifted to dreams, optimism etc. It was then I realized, dreams or wishes are often so positive that it initiates an involuntary expectation in our mind. And, when we realize the dream or wish is not really going to succeed the pain it gives is so heavy, like the one I had yesterday :(

So what do we do?? stop dreaming or wishing?? or dream and stop expecting?? I am really confused here…

I would like to know your view on this(if at all some one is reading my blog regularly :) )…Please drop in an comment on your view which could help me out…