Me, Myself and My thoughts…

Sometimes…not really sometimes…many a times…I feel kind of lonely…Though there are people around me…Though there are people to help me out…I don’t understand why is this?

Kind of loneliness as if the world has blacked out…The problem in hand seems like a gorgeous monster…Feel like I am in a lonely road with no people around..Feel like I am lost in a maze without a way out…

But then, amidst all these confusions, there is a feeble voice which keeps saying “Go on !! Go on !! I am here by your side…” whats this voice or whats this feeling?? Spiritualist’s say its god’s voice in me…some of them say its the voice of your inner self…Well, finally what matters is…It keeps you going…Its from this fraction when I hear this inner voice, I feel energized….charged up…I feel I can handle anything….

Similarly everyone has an inner voice…All you need to do is just keep listening to it…We are in a world of disturbance and we live a materialistic life where we forget to hear or realize our inner self which is the best companion

Whenever you are lonely or confused or frustrated or feeling uncomfortable…calm down !! just calm down !! slow down !! spend few minutes in silence in a lonely place !! spend sometime with yourself ….It all needs is just minutes of realization… Then, things will be smooth

Its really a nice feeling to know some one is always besides you to help you always Its always really nice to know you are your best companion That makes you happy and smiling…Smile and happiness is contagious….Make a change….Let the world be illuminated with your smile

Keep smiling

The above is the video captured on Women’s day evening. The place is pizza hut and the singer is Kalyan, he is my mentor and buddy at work But he mentor’s me in a lot of things other than work too Proud to be his mentee….

Hope he visits this page, promised me a treat for this

Unfortunately I missed this party, since we planned for “Mozhi” the same time

How many times in a day you think of how others feel when you do something or when you say something?

I will say, I think about it always…When I write an email to my manager, when I drink water, when I eat in cafeteria and what not…

Does it mean you are not yourself? What happens when you think about others rather than about yourself…We tend to be more pacifying…We tend not tell our views even though they are valid…Even, after telling our views or doing a deed, we end up apologizing or cutting a sorry figure for just being our selves.

Now, you should be thinking…well does that mean “I say something that hurts some one else and I don’t apologize, that’s rude…” of course, yes it is rude sadly what should you do then…I will tell what I do…I am not sure if it works out fine for everyone, voice your view and justify your view or deed in a smooth passionate way…and throw the heck out of your mind.

Naturally, the person on the other end is also an human, he/she will understand you…may be not at the moment…even after sometime. Sometime, may be seconds, minutes, hours, days, months, or years. I am sure at one point people will know why you did that or why you spoke like that…All it takes them is to think what they would have done putting themselves on your shoes…There your justification does help

Humans are all around…Social animals…sometimes friendly…sometimes rude…sometimes happy…sometimes sad…sometimes loving…sometimes hurting…sometimes mad…sometimes brilliant…sometimes nuts…sometimes charming…Love them all…they will love you back… That’s the power of love…

Next time when you are yourself…you will contended…you will feel happy for it…you are living your life buddy…And, you will feel more happy when some one understood why you were yourself

Start being yourself…

Is lost dreams the right word? or is it unachievable dreams

That was the debate in my mind when I started this post, well I will call them lost dreams…Everyone has a dream…small or big or silly…Most of the times when we are idle our thought process ends up in a dream or a wish

When I sip the coffee from our office coffee vending machine, I always wish it could have been much better…When I see a small kid arguing with his mother for a toy, I wish I remained a kid for the life time…Some of these wishes or dreams are achievable and some of them are not…I too have a lot of dreams…some of them are not achievable till now while for some of them still there is a scope

The ones which are not achievable, I call them lost…one of them is, I wanted to be a fighter pilot in my childhood days…I landed up as a fighter coder, fighting with my own code and similarly a lot of them….

Yesterday night when I was in the terrace thinking about all these lost dreams, I decided not to have more of it…stop there people!!! I meant not more of lost dreams…Wanted to turn them to reality…Do something towards it !!! Do it!! Urged my mind…Some of the dreams which I want to accomplish this year (2007) are,

• Learn French if time permits learn some other foreign language also, probably Japanese or German.
• Be a reasonably sound person in software architecture, Linux and open source.
• Enhance and improve my soap carving, poetry and writing skills.
• Be a good photographer…with how much ever I can do with my digital still camera
• Have a web space of my own.
• Do as much as I can for people who are in need.
• Have a vacation with my family in a foreign country.

 Last but not the least….

• Spend sometime for myself everyday

 Well, these are the only dreams of mine which are within scope, in terms of time and energy :)

 Now what are you staring at the monitor for?? Realize your own dreams…start preparing for it…but before that…Don’t forget to wish me all the best

Unnai marakka nenaikum podhellam…
Ennai marakka seigiraai

Eppodhum illadha salanaam…
Endrum illadha edhirparpu

Ennayum ariyamal oru varuthaam…
Arindhum theriyadha un bimbaam

Urangum neramum ullathil un nenaivugal…
Urangadha neramo kangalil oru thedaal…

Vazhakayum oru vidaai theriyadha pudhiraa?
Vidai edhum illai endru therinthum…
Ennai tholaithin indha pudhiril…

The day was the same as usual, Monday morning blues… I woke up with a usual wish that it was still a Saturday or Sunday…

Today was my license test for MCWG (two wheeler) and LMV (four wheeler). I was very much confident about four wheeler since we were practicing for almost 20 days, I was bit scared about the two wheeler, just for the reason that some one told me its tough, some couple of years back

I was yet blindly confident on the other side that I will get the license because I am applying for via the driving school, the simplest way to get license for lazy people like me

That happened to be the true; it was just like cake walk… Around 2:30 PM I got my license, that’s a wonderful and indeed a great achievement to me. I proudly showed my license to my dad and mom, as if I had achieved some unachievable thing in my life even my dad was pulling my legs for the same… but for me it was in fact a glorious victory… I never miss an opportunity to celebrate small achievements because they pave way for bigger ones

I went to office around 3:30 PM, just when I entered the parking space I saw two girls from our project dressed up in saree (indeed pretty looking ). Then I realized, how can I forget this…Today is our Business Unit (BU) annual day, I rushed to my seat. Again, the first thing I did was, I was boasting to my colleagues that I was “officially licensed to kill” from now on

The annual day function was about to be started at 4:30 PM, we had our usual coffee break at 3:45 PM and I came back just to check my emails. At, 4:30 PM we were in the cafeteria, as usual we sat in the last row just because of the reason the host happens to be a close friend of ours, we badly wanted to pull his legs but before that I should admit the truth that I wrote the script for the days event presentations

So the events started as usual all presentations and boring speeches, I thought it’s yet another annual meeting. Then the award presentation time started, I heard the announcement, wow!! The award for excellence in his initiatives goes to Raj (one of my best friends at work)…as soon as he came back to his seat, I asked him for a treat (the usual thing I am interested than an award)

Next, some entertainment events started, I felt it was very boring…and half of the people in the last two rows were already in their dream world Then, next set of awards, this time I was shocked to hear that I won the award for excellence in team building… till I came back to my seat I could not believe it….Even now I don’t understand why I was given this award As soon as I came to my seat, Raj happily said “you got one award and I got one award, so treat cancelled….”

Karthik (another of my best friend at work) won the award of long timer , but we knew this news already since he updated us regarding this during coffee time. The guest of honor, that day was Pranav Karthik he is Jr Karthik. We enjoyed a lot with him, his expressions, smiles, activities really wonderful…

All these things all together made my day, I will never forget this happy and contented day in my life. First day, I have won an award in my career…I got my license, two of my friends won their awards….good times with Pranav…Lying on my bed that night, I was just smiling, thinking about the events….